Be Kind To Yourself!
“Breathe. Let go. And remind yourself that this very moment is the only one you know you have for sure.”
-Oprah
Suffice it to say like many 2020 has not been my year. Which is kind of sad because when I really think about it, things could have been a lot worse for me. For starters I could be dead. In my head all I hear is my husband saying “but did you die?” Most of the time I want to strangle him when he says this… but in this instance he is right. (sssshhhh let’s just keep that between us why don’t we ;P) Because when it comes down to it no I did not die and I am thankful for that. I am thankful for simply opening my eyes each morning, I am thankful to have job, and I am thankful that I get to see my family and friends. This is a luxury that I know many do not have especially with the spread of COVID. Looking back, I am starting to see the good times like running amuck in Disneyland preclosure, forming a FRAMILY, starting a site, and so much more. If I dig deeper I think the one thing that stands out, as a real negative was not being kind to myself. Over the recent years I have noticed that I have become a pretty harsh self-critic. This has become glaringly obvious in the latter of 2020. I am very quick to say the things I deem as my “flaws”. I can honestly say when I look in the mirror I don’t see the wonderful things I have to contribute to the world. What I see is someone who is overweight, not a good enough artist, someone who isn’t beautiful, someone who doesn’t deserve that love she has, and oh man the list goes on. This will usually lead to a whole day of just feeling meh about myself. It wasn’t till I started writing this post that I realized a thought. That thought is I NEVER like when my friends talk about themselves like this. Most of the time I usually say hey that’s my friend you are talking about! So the question is why am I not doing this to myself? It seems like such an easy answer but I know that it will take time and help. I cannot be scared or embarrassed anymore to admit when I need help from others. To know that it’s okay to be somewhat selfish and say no when I am not good mentally or just drained. It is my promise here and now that I will speak with kindness and love to myself. Sure there will be days I will struggle but if I work hard even those days will become less and less. For every negative thought, I need to find two positives. One day, I know I will look into the mirror and see the amazing things that I have to give. I think that this will be a major goal for myself in 2021 and I challenge you to do it too. So let the kindness begin!
Toodles Noodles- Caitie
